Ahh the only time I've had a chance to write a blog is at 11pm on a sunday when i have basketball at 8am on the next day. WOW. Have you ever had those times when you're just so overwhelmed that you just don't know when you'll have time to do anything? I'm sure you have. Like i have a midterm starting this tuesday, going until thursday, a basketball game everyday this week, and allcounty on friday and saturday which in total is for thirteen hours :O. Crazy right? Yea. And that's not counting the time for homework, studying, and practicing, or lack there of. && have you ever had one of those times when you feel like everything's falling apart? But you're just so tired and fed up with everything, or everyone, that in a way you don't even care. I'm not at that place right now, but I have been, and if any of you are I just want you to know that time heals everything. It really does. But at the same time, it makes it worse. Life is really just one large rollarcoaster. With time everything gets better, but the longer you have a good thing, the sooner it'll become bad.
Sometimes I think that we all point fingers at people saying "You've changed", which yea, they probably have, but there will come a point when you just keeping pointing the finger at everyone else so much that you become dizzy from going in circles, and I think that's when we need to look at ourselves and think "Maybe I'm the one who's changing". I have to tell you something though, there's a certain event that's happend recently and it made me realize that everyone changes, whether for the good or for the bad, but we should change because we need to, not for someone else. Not to make someone else happy or to please them because sure, they'll be happy, but when you look at and re-evaluate yourself, you sure as hell won't be.
Thanks for those of you who are reading, and I know this has been rather short, but I hope to make up for it with this quote.
"You're like a three-legged dog that wants to hump. You have the instinct alright, but you just don't know how to do it." -Big Love
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Apoligy
Hey you guys
I apoligize for not have written a blog in such a long amount of time.
Just I've been so busy lately.
Between basketball, the boyfriend, school, and my birthday,
I've had absolutely no time.
But I will try to write one as soon as I can.
I apoligize for not have written a blog in such a long amount of time.
Just I've been so busy lately.
Between basketball, the boyfriend, school, and my birthday,
I've had absolutely no time.
But I will try to write one as soon as I can.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy New Year!
Heyy. I kind of started this blog before, but I've decided that I'm going to re-do this thing because I wasn't happy with where it was going. I don't really know how to start this, so I'm kinda just gonna speak from my heart.
Have you ever looked at an old picture of when you were really young and said to yourself "aww! I was the cutest baby ever! " or looked at a sock or shoe from when you were younger and just thought to yourself "how was i ever this tiny?". I think that's an amazing thing. Life, in general, is an amazing thing. Sometimes I think we take things for granted. I started watching this show called the Secret Millionare, and it really showed me how unfortunate some people are. Literally living on the streets with cancer and serious illnesses,making minimum wage to get something to eat and drink, god forbid if they need to go to chemo. I don't know, it just really encourages me to make a difference in the world. I really want to change millions of lives for the better. It's kind of crazy how fast the years pass though. On the same show, these people became millionares because they started buisnesses at the same age as i am! Fourteen years old. That's crazy because it kind of makes me think how much more i could have accomplished by this age. Ah the years are going by so fast now. I turn fifteen in 9 days (January 10th), and then what? Three years until I go off to college? That's crazy. I know that I'm not ready to leave yet, and I don't believe that most of you are either. I think it'll kind of be like we spent 17-19 years of our lives making our own little mark in our town/city, in our school, and our community, and then we're told to leave and go out into the real world? It's kind of like we are a somebody here, and then you go out into the real world, and you start back out as a little baby. I think that's kind of ironic.
I remember how looking at pictures from a few years back, I see such a change in my appearance and with who I am on the inside. I'm happy with whom I've become. HA it's probably the same for everyone, but I remember when I was younger I was determined that I was a star and an amazing, but undiscoved, talent, and I was just waiting to become discovered and famous. I remember that somedays I would go by windows and sing soo loud because I believed that one day a scout for a record company would just walk by and be so amazed by my voice that I would be signed immediately and make millions of dollars like I was supposed to, but I've grown up. I want to become a psychologist, either clinical or forensic, but I still love to sing. It'd be nice to do that for a living, but it's not something that I would like to do while raising a family. I also remember something else that stemmed from when I was younger. I believed that screaming from the top of a mountain would get rid of all of the stress that I have ever had. I still believe that actually, no matter how childish it seems.
Isn't it crazy how you can be so close with someone one year, and then the next year you don't even say hi to them in the hallway? I hate when that happens, but at the same time I appreciate those friends who have stuck with me through it all.
I know this was rather long, but this is probably the longest one i will ever write. Thanks for reading, and I'll probably update this weekly :) Please leave a comment if you read this.
Thank you <3>
&& I'll leave you with these two quotess...
"The truth of the matter is that you always know the right thing to do. The hard part is doing it."
-Unknown
AND
The strongest girl of them all isn't the one that falls hard for the boy
Or the one who's heart gets ripped to shreds
Or even the girl that's never loved at all
But the girl that goes back to the one that hurt her most.
-Zenobia
Have you ever looked at an old picture of when you were really young and said to yourself "aww! I was the cutest baby ever! " or looked at a sock or shoe from when you were younger and just thought to yourself "how was i ever this tiny?". I think that's an amazing thing. Life, in general, is an amazing thing. Sometimes I think we take things for granted. I started watching this show called the Secret Millionare, and it really showed me how unfortunate some people are. Literally living on the streets with cancer and serious illnesses,making minimum wage to get something to eat and drink, god forbid if they need to go to chemo. I don't know, it just really encourages me to make a difference in the world. I really want to change millions of lives for the better. It's kind of crazy how fast the years pass though. On the same show, these people became millionares because they started buisnesses at the same age as i am! Fourteen years old. That's crazy because it kind of makes me think how much more i could have accomplished by this age. Ah the years are going by so fast now. I turn fifteen in 9 days (January 10th), and then what? Three years until I go off to college? That's crazy. I know that I'm not ready to leave yet, and I don't believe that most of you are either. I think it'll kind of be like we spent 17-19 years of our lives making our own little mark in our town/city, in our school, and our community, and then we're told to leave and go out into the real world? It's kind of like we are a somebody here, and then you go out into the real world, and you start back out as a little baby. I think that's kind of ironic.
I remember how looking at pictures from a few years back, I see such a change in my appearance and with who I am on the inside. I'm happy with whom I've become. HA it's probably the same for everyone, but I remember when I was younger I was determined that I was a star and an amazing, but undiscoved, talent, and I was just waiting to become discovered and famous. I remember that somedays I would go by windows and sing soo loud because I believed that one day a scout for a record company would just walk by and be so amazed by my voice that I would be signed immediately and make millions of dollars like I was supposed to, but I've grown up. I want to become a psychologist, either clinical or forensic, but I still love to sing. It'd be nice to do that for a living, but it's not something that I would like to do while raising a family. I also remember something else that stemmed from when I was younger. I believed that screaming from the top of a mountain would get rid of all of the stress that I have ever had. I still believe that actually, no matter how childish it seems.
Isn't it crazy how you can be so close with someone one year, and then the next year you don't even say hi to them in the hallway? I hate when that happens, but at the same time I appreciate those friends who have stuck with me through it all.
I know this was rather long, but this is probably the longest one i will ever write. Thanks for reading, and I'll probably update this weekly :) Please leave a comment if you read this.
Thank you <3>
&& I'll leave you with these two quotess...
"The truth of the matter is that you always know the right thing to do. The hard part is doing it."
-Unknown
AND
The strongest girl of them all isn't the one that falls hard for the boy
Or the one who's heart gets ripped to shreds
Or even the girl that's never loved at all
But the girl that goes back to the one that hurt her most.
-Zenobia
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